Everything is starting all over again. The anger, jealousy and sadness. I really can't help it. Your actions and everything are making me feel uneasy. I kept listening to music focusing of wd I'm doing, ignoring whatever that is happen so that it won't affect my mood and those around me. But it is just so hard. Exactly the same thing happened yesterday but I just don't want to blog about it, spoiling all my happy things.

I really regret telling both of you about it. One is super close to her, the other is...i don't know. Both of you must be thinking I'm a sensitive person, get jealous/angry/sad for such thing and her when she didn't do anything. If both of you are really thinking that, I tell you: I'm like tt, I'm sensitive and emotional. But you think I want it. I also want myself to be happy, smiling and laughing in class, making those around cheerful and happy too. Telling my problems only keeps me free and happy for a short time only, it can't help solve my problem. I think keeping it to myself is the best. And if I really can't take it, i shall just cry and cry and cry until I feel better.

RACHEL, SORRY I BROKE MY PROMISE TO YOU TO BE HAPPY AND CHEERFUL, NOT CRYING ANYMORE.

kaiweng: I hope my mood is not affecting you. But if it really does and you want to change place, go ahead.